Y O U ..........the special-est u.....

 akeli raat, 

 na tum na tera saath

dil ke har kone mein gunjti hai

                              bas teri baat

yaad bas tum  aate ho,

yaad bas teri yaad....                                                                   ..  (16/1)  

                                                                                                                                    

aaj kuchh sehma sehma sa lag raha hai

 bas intezaar hai   uss pal ka jab

 tum puchoge  kaise ho

dil ne tumhe hai pukara

bas tum ho ki sab bhool jaaaati ho....bhoool jati ho....(2)              ..(17/1)                                                                          

khamosh dhadkan ki  khamosiii

inn sabko  pyaar se chuppa doon

kabhi hasaye, kabhi rulaye..

par kabhi main bayaan na karta hoon..                                          ..  (19/1)                                                                                             

 jo  aaj tum chal diye

 lagta hai jaise, tum kho gaye

lekin hai iss dil se  duaa

 jiyo tum  hazaron saal,oh mere jigar da lal.....                                ..(20/1).                                                                                      

jo aaj pehli baar 

hum 12 baje  wish na kar sake

aur yeh dil tham sa gaya

suna suna sa kuchh toh laga...............                    .......(20/1....night)                                                                                                             

missed you since morning sweetheart

just that some tears are tearing me apart

loneliness taking a toll

am dying to give you a call

no no no why is everything  so dull

dullllllllll dulllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll                  ............(21/1..morning )                                                                                    

my heart skips a beat

missing you  daggers my soul

and i feel the chilled pain inside

like someone is taking you away

and these small tidbits kill me from within                         ..............(21/1 night)..                                                                                   

the heart dies every moment

every single moment 
it dies:(

kabhi kabhi jab yeh dil-- pyaar--  ke liye tarasta hai

tabhi woh mujhe  unchhi awaaz   se chilati hai

bas maanga tha ek treat,    fir se sunaya mujhe

aur kabhi nahin aur  kabhi nahin mangunga mein tujhe........             .....(22/1)---

.

a better world beckons us

a safe world is what we are seek

but for me, the favorite place in the world is next to you

wish to sleep on your lap and bid adieu-----------                               ..(23/1)....                                                  

the fights we have

the jokes we share

cats and crows we shout

the  arguments the pouts

the yes and the nos

the arrows and the bows

the dreams and the vows

 pumas and converse

the arms and the torsos

the blacks and the whites

the feel and the sights

the truth and the lies

the hellos ans the byes

the day and the nights

the wrong and the rights

 hugs and the kisses

the hisses and the misses

the sun and the moons

the novembers , the junes

the calls and the sms

the aches and the pms

the sleeps and the dreams

the series and the films

the cakes and the drives

the fire and the vibes

the list is endless

                                          hope we remain the same for always.......                         ....(24/1 and 25/1)--

you were the one

you are the one

and you will always be the the one

my princess, my princess

my princess you are

lalala alalal lalalalala                                                                                                                                                                     

you have been my greatest gift

my greatest desire..........................................                                                                                                                                

my love my pyaar--------                                                           ---(26/1)

mere ko usne denied

she wont taste my food

maine usse said

how can you be so rude

wishing to cook for her someday

anytime,anyday,any item my way my way myy wayyyyyyyy.....----(27/1)..........                                                                                

shukriya shukriya lafzon ne kiya bayaan

aakar meri zindagi mein sapnon ko sajaya meri jaan (2)

ata pata kho gaya tha

jo tu naa tha,  tu na tha

phool jo khile dil mein

saans lena mushkil sa tha

my darling my sweetheart

my love my life

..

tu mera dil tu mera jaan

i love you sweetheart.(2)

i love you i love you.........................................                      (29/1 and 30/1).........                                                                                                          

forget me not,

leave me not

there you go once again

and i miss you mountains and plain--

time forbids our meeting

thanks to almighty, 

yet nothing is pitying

beautiful days await

only thing i can give is love i bet.......                                          ..  ...(31/1)                                                                                                                                                   

subah le kar sham tak

 ki humne bas chand baatein

din kat gaya, ab kaise katenge raatein, yeh raatein

jiss din tumhe yeh lafz naseeb honge

shayad ussi din tumhe yeh achhe se samajh aaenge  :)......          ..... (1/2)............                                                              

ears are dying to hear you

heart only wants to feel you

eyes are craving only for you   (2)

how much i be gratified

 they will always be due..

they will always be due....................................................

 i love you, i love you, i love you

i loveeeeeeeee you , i love you.........lalala..

heart only wants to feel you

eyes are craving only for you

love you, i love you.

i love you......

youuuuuuuuu

i love you..................................................                                ...(2/2)                                                                                                                                       

.

barrsho jo khwab bune

sach woh aaj huye the

BUT

all dreams seem to die

i cry,cry and cry

the heart feels it all

pain,  bitter pain, bitter pain

 i lie dead in my den.... 

     lie dead in my den...                                                              ..(3/2)..

uss mastani shaam ko 

          tere haathon se ek garam pyali

tere pyaar ke rang mein

                              kheloon main holi

tere dil pe likh loon mein

                              apne pyaar ki boli

kar doon mein duniya se bewafa

           jo tu mujhe mili, jo tu mujhe mili..-----------------               ...(6/2) ....                                                                                                                                 

gulab ki uss muskann se

pathhar jo khil utha

tere unn adayon ka main

bhi deewana sa tha

jo tune mere pyaar ko kinara kar diya

dil ke sau tukde samndar mein jaa mili

milaya bhi toh kya milaya

do dil ko  fir se judaya  koi aur nahi, woh hai apna dilli   ...                ..(7/2)...

cham se jo do  boond gir pade

paraye apne ho gaye

jaade ki uss nisha mein

sapne sajaye hum naye-------                                                   ...(8/2).....

mera chaand mujhe hai mila
mere god se main aur kya maangta
yun hi chalta rahe yeh pyaar ka silsila
mera chand hai mujhe mila...
lalala alalaa la la la              ..........................                                     ...(9/2)....

CONFUSED UHH----

 
Part-1 


 5:30 in the morning…sitting confused yet my face shows no signs of regret for what all I have done to myself over the last few months..i am just lost.... googling my path ahead..never thought to be in such a quagmired status and the only escape from it is when I give a damn shit try…and this should not be a difficult task for an escapist like me..but again this requires changes in numerous aspects of my life for which though I am ready but is the toughest task ever asked by myself to myself.. 


  hey my tummy is crying…please please someone please feed me please…this cup of hot tea is not what I want at this point..please just take it away.. 


 In the office itself , a glance at the dedicated bunch of juniors and seniors makes me all the more nausea tic.. over the years I have become so so careless..can you beat the fact that almost every other day I lose one pen in the office..and its so funny to say that now I belong to P.O.R.N. (people of reckless nature) category..And whats more I have been reading articles on various facets of life that needs to be inducted in my life to shape my life..this I have doing for hours in the last few days. 


Four years of engineering has made me so flexible that i have learnt to adjust to anything and anywhere despite the fact that I am so complaining as I am never satisfied easily until I get what I desire for ...a typical scorpion trait..i don’t know whether this flexible thing is a desirable quality or not as I attribute this factor to be the one responsible for the dying of fighting spirit and not feeling bad for anything type attitude…and these are signs of a loser..yes a bloody loser.. 


 Part-2 


 The chilled night is begging me to enter into a dormant mode..but see I am into this night shift thing after so many days betraying the blanket which is waiting for me in my den.. What for I am doing this..? this indepth analysis of my inner self which I have never done before…I know no one is perfect ..and still…why?? Why do I hate being in a job? And yes the payslip that just released brought a smile on my face not because for the fact that my account got thickened but for the reason that I still earned almost the same while sitting at the home..come on this is no achievement..take pain in the fact that you ruined your first attempt..failures are for sure bitter and the very feeling of failure if at all in the next attempt makes deep shudders of cold run through my body .. and there are many things I cannot reveal… I am just missing out something..i have an idea of it..but don’t want to go deep into it..it is painful..but hey come on this hardly is going to make any difference as all your tears have already dried..just wondering how my life has turned into a rubber ball.. it still retains the inherent property of bouncing inspite of being played to a limitless extent….

.....????.....

.......... .. u rock and roll
............and stay off all pain
dis is wat d selfish soul
wish 4 u in dese days of rain


wt ws my fault dat u r so far
u wnt undrstnd how special u R

the short stint as friends
is wat i ll treasure my dear
hv a blasting bday 2day
for years, and forever.


hope u dnt forget dis friend
he misses u a lot
all he can ask for
remain his friend till d end....

W H Y ? ? ?

not again, never again
i ll let myself loose
its so haunting, its so daunting
to forget someone, to keep going...

it is cryin, it is still cryin
the heart cn no longer keep bearing
y did it happen at all?

love is d bloodiest thng to happen ever
when it is one-sided,it hurts u evn more.
y do we yearn 4 somebody?
y we strt prayin god so insanely.?

everything boils down from inside
u lose interest in everything
wat to do,wat not to do,
life becomes hell so confusing..

y did god create her
if she was created , y did we meet at all
if we met, y did we bcm frnds den
its still k, but y did i fall for her

wen d heart races on seeing her, it feels so great.
wen its obvious u wont c her again,
u feel so cheated and berated..


but i ll still wait wait and wait
because i love her, love her and only her
i'm gonna luv her till d end.....

C A L L !!!!

hey ya,more 30 days and u dnt knw where u are,
hey ya,much to lose and less to be pocketed there.

hey ya,wud b standing at crossroad
hey ya,no one 2 guide and no other avenue wud be left 2 board

hey ya,personally and professionally ,a new beginning
hey ya,a shocking flashwave keeps me shivering.

hey ya,leave behind many near and dear ones,
hey ya,they sud also miss me,dis is wat my heart wants.

hey ya,people u wont meet again,
hey ya,but some ll always remain in heart and brain.

hey ya,no doubt the present life is lingering a bit
hey ya,atleast it gave ample chances to try out being in different orbit.


hey ya, i got to tell u how i feel,
hey ya,i want someone to say me just chill.

hey ya,i need to wake up
hey ya,enough is enough , i ought to fulfill my dream cup..

hey ya, hopefully the coming days give me back my finesse
hey ya, waiting to be bestowed by god's largesse.

hey ya hey ya...

s o m e t h i n g ...something....

we the victim of emotional somersault
its not only about solitude but the yearning for that someone
which make our days more and more difficult.


failing to gauge the gravitational pull of relationship
we crave for someone who can,who sud make a difference
this is the first symptom, dat makes our heart beep.



is it not amazing when we hate someone,
then we are the one who lit the fire
but if we love someone,we fear to tell even dat very one..


the most wonderful feeling ever
which keeps our life out of control
paving a path in our lifeline forever.


the love to be cared for and care to love dat someone
sud never b overdone
if u get dumped, be happy for the loss u suffered
but if u dump, then remember everything is gone....


respect the love
it will take care of everything else like a fay
fights wud occur,
but dont dare to call it a day..

one thing u keep in mind u love the person for what he/she is..
dont try to permute dat special someone..
otherwise get ready for sucks and shocks from well-knit chain of bees..

well it was a compilation
filled with 90% own creation
little edition and slight addition

.

L O S T . . . .

why man why

why i m not the one who i am
when it matters d most,
why have the cells failed to burst.?

i dnt deliver wen it is meant to be
am i a sore loser
wat can i do
may be i m a bloody choker.

how to get rid of it?
how can i be done wit d thngs wen i want?
life was easy for me always
its not d case anymore, and now i cant.

wen can i seriously stand upto people's expectations
or most importantly my own.
life puts you under different situations
how hard u try, u cnt run.

who said failures are the pillars of success
WHAT I FEEL is lack of feeling bad
has turned failures into caresses

i did say me, "wat i am" many a times
but den why do i gv up??
needfully i need some chimes
to fight out my cunctation, to pop me up.

i knw its not me who can help myself
but WHO??

But You, O GOD, the Lord, deal kindly with me for Your name's sake
all i hv said is very true, dis is no fake
no mishaps, no serious alterations i ask for
if i m able 2 gv my best always, treat 4 u is what i assure.


If I believe I can, or if i believe I cant,am I probably right ??

A THOROUGH journey through________

they say it takes 21 days to form a habit..and i agree to it.
yes dear and near ones just heed to this adage and you are there..
you can get yourself done away with some addicted stuffs ,
though it is quite painful in its budding stage..

well we are lazy enough to grab the opportunities knocking
on our doors and repent afterwards..you just cant feel the
heat of some hit then but it wud late then once its flimsy
presence enables a shudder to pass through your body...

life is full of shocks and I think we have lost the pleasure
of getting hurt..we are now shameless enough and that too
to such an extent where foreign particles no more possess
the properties of aching our hearts..how is it possible??
we are, perhaps, no more left with the roots of
emotions,pain,love and hatred anymore.
man versus machine no longer holds true..hats off to the
adjustment cells present in us.they know the deals better..
they lay the trap for us to forget the past and live in the
present without thinking of the future.. i dont understand
the maze of things that i am into right now
but.. yes this seriously corresponds to the complex system
of life..is the heart left with the only functioning of
pumping blood thereby draining out all sorts of feelings??
or is it that there was overdose of some pains that we
just are not able to look into things events and different
plots of life.

i dnt know whether it is something desirable or not but it
seriously is putting our hearts under deep scrutiny..its tenderness....

everything & M O R E .................

woh khoon kaho kis matlab ka jisme ubal ka naam nahi
woh khoon kaho kis matlab ka jo aa sake desh ke kaam nahin.....


happy independence day...

the sole phrase dat binds ur ears the entire day..
no doubt we all derive immense pleasure in yelling
yes we are Indians..but we all can put one step
forward in showing the world what stuff we are
and choking the nations to have a better opinion
of our nation..
well how many people really took genuine interests
in the national celebration..for them it was a good
long day to relax..partying with friends,and watching
KAMINEY.. in multiplexes paying a hefty price
for some real scrap movies (ANYWAYS KAMINEY IS GOOD)
and one bucket of priceless popcorn.. well this is justified
ki we work and we earn and we have every right to enjoy
ourselves the way we want..but why do we forget
then that there are others who are suffering every
moment rite out there ..just because GOD HAS NOT
BEEN KIND TO THEM. Dont u think its already time
we realise ki we are the ones who can carve a
better, beautiful and bold INDIA.
we cannot leave everything to the govt. it is just
not possible. we just cant expect the govt. to tackle
each and every problem smoothly.. everythng is
SARKARI. then there is a lot of static out dere...
and generations wud pass before we can catch a sight
of the developed india as envisaged by the great Kalam.
we can embed in us the thought of the nation, our very own India.

look at the disparity in the earnings of people..some
have properties of 1000's of crores and adding a new
hummer, or new porsche every other day
while shockingly 80% of the population dnt get enough
to eat..
we are all thankful to god ki how lucky we are..
each and every dream of ours gets fulfilled ..the number
of different brands of apparels found in our closets,
number of nike,reebok or woodland footwears lining
our shoeracks, to having 3-4 lappys in each house ,
eating in kfc's and mcdonalds to having number of
rooms more than number of members in the family
to each and every comfort more than what an average
individual needs in reality and then dere are those
children who have to put on the same piece of cloth
for years together and ask them whether they know
how a dairy milk tastes like? And do they have the
privilege to put down their feelings in blogs..and the
lakhs of senior citizens who dnt have a house to live
in nor liberty to live with..





we can and we must make a difference..the root of all
problems being poverty..we need to wipe it out before
its offsprings like corruption and terrorism engulf our
country like anything.
we can bring out a change in the development index of
our country . Can't a single well-to-do individual take
the responsibility of a needy to some extent.. what are
you waiting for?? dont you want to see a smile on each
and every Indian..and this wud be the day when we can
proudly say that we all belong to independent india,free
from every evil that has ever surfaced..


well me awaiting my first salary to hopefully give me some
impetus to be serious in efforts regarding this..

'RUF' & 'TUF'

its time for a new beginning. this is what I thought...

but the days that followed were the real nightmares for

me...the days are unforgettable for villainous reasons..

those were the pathetic days..i dint knw how the thngs

folded and the then unfolding of events. what?? why?? how??

i knw some may never forgive me..but everyone had their

own shares of mistakes..anyways to err is human..

the biographies of people involved changed forever..

even the google map cant trace us out of the ever

tangling routes that we were into..i got to realise the

meaning of trust and betrayal..and these two simple words

have so much weightage attached to them..they can themselves

be a part of the curriculum during one's graduation...

the happy-go-lucky lad was left stranded alone for days.

what he thought to be the STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN eventually

got converted into the HIGHWAY TO HELL...

he had to bite his f***ing tongue for long..this boy who

always moved out of happiness moved for happiness. and

the weeping part, how can I forget it..oohhhhhh it was

real horrible...some people made fun of the cornball....

i think dose who dont knw how to weep dnt knw how to

laugh with their hearts out even..he was then in

search of some sort of moorings..but......

and to mention not one thing he developed was an

acquaintance with the concept of fair weather friend..

and deeply got familarised with the feathers of such

creatures..

tracking the things back is indeed painful.everything

sounds like a pencil sharpener..

finally breathing a sigh of relief...ufffffooooo...

jst check out for the time

and date of this posting

..wat a co-incidence..